Show ya Flow

Let Go and Not Fall

2007-06-21T01:00:00.000-07:00

Able to stand yet not willing to leap
wanting to jump but my footing I keep

To risk shattered heart or be busted and broken
not sure of the price for offering my tokens.

I'm poor in success of the strength that I lack
to not offer my pearls or keep them held back.

watching him live within her arms
knowing he gazes on her favored charms.

The torment within raging throughout my veins
wanting to pull on the bridle, but instead drop the reins.

no understanding of life's intercept
many nights wondering why as I lay and I wept.

How long should one heart really endure
with feelings so raw and emotions so pure?

Wanting to run at a speedy rate
and to rescue from a self created fate

is there no way to let go and not fall?
must it be everything or nothing, winner take all?

I play the fool this truth I know
my addiction is fixed to see his smile glow.

I fear I have failed and fallen from grace
never to own the smile on his face.

Steady and stable, reinforced where there's slack
his measure of caring brings my soul back on track.

taking all of the portion he has for me
knowing there's more of what I failed to see.

Believing his call isn't fate in the wind
knowing such treasure, my heart starts to mend.

Strengthened and confident, tall and elite
wanting to jump yet, my footing I keep.

Contemplate Eternity

2007-01-08T13:08:00.000-08:00

How can you contemplate eternity?
For it has forever existed and will ever exist.

From our first cries on earth to our last breath
Back into eternity our spirits came into being
Long before it rests within the body we host for it.

Eternity is never changing and never stayed.
Yet it is ever changing and always stayed.

Eternity is with us with each waking moment
And each sleeping hour.
We hold hands with eternity as we
Dance in the sun and rain and cry through the joy and pain.

Eternity influences our choices that map our earthly course
with its twists and turns that lead through the roads of life.

Sometimes, those roads lead us to nowhere.
Other times it leads us to a placid lake mirroring the creator’s
reflections of his personal artwork.

Eternity claims us during our hurt, weary, anxious or ill times
It seems to escape us in times of laughter and peace yet it remains
Constant each moment.

We travel along this earthy existence forgetting that
Eternity indeed is our constant companion:
as we are now, As we were before and as we always will be.

Numbers cannot account for its magnanimous existence
Nor can a clock stop its fortitude in perseverance to carry on.

You may not see, feel or hear eternity
Eternity has never or will never cease to exist.
We, you and I, are eternity and just like eternity we will always be.

Exposed

2006-12-30T18:28:00.000-08:00

The soul can tell and can't rely
when lips speak half truths and entire lies

What hugs try to hide, the eyes convey
what the heart knows inside and the words don't say

When the game is complete do we tremble in fear?
Who do you stand with when the smoke is all cleared?

This childish game we insist to play
is that what keeps us close each day?

Hearts lie shattered and bleeding inside
as red doves that have dropped with a shot from the sky.

Yet drops from a shattered heart make no sound
but still are like rubies spilling to the ground.

The heart and the soul you can't hear them cry
when your lips and your touch hide the unspoken lies.

Scattered

2006-12-30T16:55:00.000-08:00

Shaken breath, rolling tears , drowning in a sea of fears.
Truths unspoken can surely calm, the haunting wreckage of the storm.

Drifting in a ocean of ignorance, searching for the life vest to take a stance.
Portioned out in limited amounts, going north, east, west, and never south

In pieces and parts and parts and specs, where you are is what your heart reflects.
Ever standing at your back, hoping to bring what you feel you lack.

While you continue to travel on, next time you seek will I gone?
Not knowing if to go or stay, living that pressure every day.

Waiting to search, searching to find, trying to catch up from behind
When you turn around and I’m not there, will you come from me, or just not care?

Trying to created larger pieces of you, to have more and to hold on to
Always longer than should have been ,wishing you here again and again.

Feeling you go before you leave, knowing you’re not really here with me.
Standing together yet, miles apart, being out of this moment from the very start.

Not feeling a chance, not willing to try, longing for hope and coming up dry
Scrounging for seconds and finding some, then searching for moments that never come.

Unable to build hours of memories true, unable to build true moments with you.
You've close your heart within yourself, I've placed my heart back on the shelf.

KMD 2006©

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U vs YOU (1,000 Michaels)

2006-12-07T23:59:00.002-08:00

U vs You

Toe to toe, face to face
You fight your fears in a state of grace.

One on one and man to man
Willing to fight, ready to stand

1,000 Mikeys standing strong
Some must die, and some belong

Each one armed with sword and shield
Stepping onto the battle field

A man of love vs. man felt failed
Both keep their hearts within a jail

The heart of love longing to be free
The failed heart rests complacently

Man of Pride vs. Humility
One can’t live on, who will it be?

Both cannot survive within
Humility dies where pride begins

A man of stone vs. man of Steele
Each knowing how the other feels

Desperately struggling to survive
But if one wins then the other dies

So many pieces of ones self
Who’s to be upon the shelf?

Judgment is hard of who will be
And kill off so many parts of me

Raging, grabbing, blocking stabbing
Coming down with heavy blow

Searching, pleading, soul lies bleeding
Not knowing when or where to go.

When the battle ends and the smoke is cleared
Which Mike will parish? Which stands revered?

Each day in the mirror when you search your eyes
You decide which Mikey dies.

~ Karyn Dudley© December 2006

Because Somone Else Gave

2006-12-04T23:40:00.003-08:00

Because Someone Else Gave

When Holidays come do we start to spend
As a token of what we can’t say?
It is making up for time unspent
of the things
we should do everyday?

As we open our boxes and stocking and bags
Wrapped in nice little paper and bows.
Do we scoff at a trinket and wonder the cost
With a smirk and upturned nose?

How often do we simply brush gifts aside
Unwelcome and left in the shade?
Forgetting the only reason we have received
Was because somebody else also gave?

The importance of giving is a key part of life
remember it down thru the age?
God loved us so much
And for our lives to touch
His only begotten… he gave.

So unselfish a gift he presented the earth
a savior to show us the way
for there is no other perfected enough
to give us great hope every day.

This only begotten he sent us,
his life was to make us all free
his focus unwavering
his teachings of love
instructing us just how to be

While his time here on earth was not very long
his impact will surely amaze
his path clearly marked
from the time of the start
until now in these latter days

when his time came to suffer the sins
of each child, woman and man
his body then bled
and the pains of us shed
he would not deviate from the plan.

The only begotten given to the earth
to save the sons of man
then have him self again to us
to fulfill Heavenly Father’s plan.

Do we take this as trinkets we discard to the side
cuz it’s not what we wanted to get?
Do we scoff at how little money was spent
and compare the value met?

In all that you purchases with checks and with cards
and with cash and coupons on hand
how often do you think of the love you can give
to him, your fellow man?

Real Love can’t be found
in pretty wrapped boxes
or stocking and festive bags
the greatest of gifts can be found any place
ours was in swaddling rags

these rags held a baby brought into the world
by the father , who wanted to give
and again these rags were draped on the one
who died so that you might live.

When the time comes upon us
once again to show just a token of love
Do we spend our hard cash on
nick nacks and stuff
or do we take example from above

Instead of gifts with the glitter and glow
and lights that go flashing all day
Remember the only reason you have received…
was because someone, with love, for you gave.

Karyn M. Dudley © 2006

Sibling Ties

2006-12-04T23:37:00.000-08:00

Sibling Ties

We started as family in Heaven
Everyone knew they belonged
A Heavenly Mother and Father
and billions of Siblings strong.

we gathered in grand council
and each agreed to life
but one of our dear siblings
had to be the sacrifice.

A conflict in the glory
a trembling of the veil
a grand battle in the family and
we cried when Lucifer fell.

Our family then, divided
some siblings forever lost
A plan of salvation created
but there would be a cost.

In turn our foreordination
Expectations and blessings high
But there was no other
‘cept Jesus, our brother
to be born, so he could die.

Our lives on earth would vary
some poor and weak and sad
but siblings ties from heaven
should make things not so bad.

each struggle’s would be different
God's love for us, so real.
Don’t for get our elder brother agreed
to level the playing field.

Our Heavenly father watches
sitting on his throne above
at this training ground called earth
wondering "where is that sibling love?"

"I sent them all down together
So they could not forget
to teach and support one another
and encourage those they've met.

They turn they backs on each other
let petty things come to be
This is not the plan, my kids
Not sibling rivalry

Remember our first battle?
1/3 of billions of host
Walked out on the rest of the family
Whose side are you on most?

In the final family reunion
Will you greet with loving eyes?
Or will shame and embarrassment fill your soul
For forgetting those sibling ties?

Karyn M. Dudley © 2006

ROCKED AND ROLLED

2006-12-04T23:36:00.000-08:00

Our father’s love
our spirits bought
he sent a son to pay the cost

The angels cheered
the angels sang
soon would come a king to reign

The Heaven’s rocked
and the heaven’s rolled
we found salvation for our soul

He grew to serve
Within the masses
Touching every life he passes

the sick he healed
the weary he held
picking up all those who fell

he walked the waters
the mountains move
evil departs when he comes through

the creatures hush
and elements silence
at the majesty of his excellence

he gathered all
no soul emitted
through him each one would be acquitted

The Saints did sing
and the heaven’s roared
Cheering our Hero for ever more

The hand of a baby
the hand of a son
outstretch to everyone

they healed the sick
they carried the weak
feed us the food that we would seek

they clasped in prayer
they bled in pain
then pierced with nails they bled again.

His eye’s with sorry
then they raised
looking toward heaven, he easily forgave

Born to die
so we could live
eternal life he came to give

Then Heaven’s rocked
and the Heaven’s rolled
we have salvation for our soul.

Karyn M. Dudley © 2006

Sameness

2006-11-30T10:12:00.000-08:00

Sameness

When u look at me
What do u see
Dark skin
Braids, curves and swerves without end.

Look beyond my brown velvet package
Catch the vibe of my mind
Feel my soul's inner wreckage

Are u seeing me
Or U vibin' what the world tells u to see

Did u come to the table
Unable to make u'r own distinction
Willing to be open, and to experience love
From loves other point of view and direction?

Have u looked into my eyes to see
How the reflection of your soul speaks to me?
Have u looked into my soul to see
Your strength and beauty that my eyes believe?

Do u feel what I am offering you?
The song in my spirit for u'r taking
Can u understand that shades of my heart
Blending, melding, courting the shades of u'r own ?

Our colors of sameness:
Shades of u run through my veins...
Shades of me pumping u'r heart the very same.

We two, are 1 fitting together
Yet our oneness is 2 differences
in life's forever

Incomplete together
Complete apart
Incomplete one without the other
And still
incomplete when we are with another.

Different and same in joy and shame
different and same in love and pain.
Sameness.

Outro:
I created this low last year. It's about my struggle to believe the man I'm interested in could share that same interest. The man is a complicated institution. Women, we simply want to know that you care for us and value us. We want you to show it and say it. As women we make the mistake in thinking that if they don't think like us and do things in a manner that is obvious to us, they don't care for us. Not true. Each person has within themselves their own design of expressing themselves. We, Men and Women, need to love enough to slow down and learn how each particular person expresses themselves. We each have a language of our own. Love and friendships come together when you have a desire to learn each other's language.

Floetry

2006-11-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

This is my new creative outlet for Love, Anger, Passion, Pain, Power, and whatever else expresses what I'm going thru.

Alot of times a particular flow will be created for a special situation or too a specific person but things are such that communicating directly to them is not appropriate or possible.

Some of my flows are Letters, to you, or myself and even God.
There will be some ramblings and just words that are in my head an need to get out.

No matter what my floetry is or how it comes it does have meaning.

I hope this blogs creats a spark of SOMETHING in you.

Enjoy